I’m currently on a 10 day trip WITHOUT any family members! The 4 days before I left were filled with preparation and a countdown. I was looking forward to a break from the never-ending demands. Having two children still at home, the youngest of whom has special needs, and three “children” in their 20’s, I have a busy life at home. Life is good. Life is busy.
True to my expectations, the first 4 days here were very recuperative. 1,200 miles from home, helping a dear friend with her newborn and 2 older children, is a sweet time of friendship. I am not as busy. I am not making formula for g-tube feedings, not keeping people on track, checking homework, etc. I get to bed earlier and can read at night without disturbing my husband. No-one awakens me during the night. I’m not on yellow alert, even as I sleep.
I miss it. I didn’t think I would. I wondered if I’d be ready to return. I took 10 days instead of 7 because I wanted to milk the opportunity for all it is worth! Get a substantial break from the demands at home. But it is my life and I enjoy it. It has value. I like the sense of purpose. Above all, I know it is a place where I belong and where love and hope reside along with all the other stuff. I miss my family.
4 more days till I’m home. Counting down again! 1-26-09