I am though. I’m tired again. It’s okay. It’s just reality.
Ever get the feeling you’ve been avoiding reality? I do that. I hide out right here at the keyboard and avoid everything else. Sometimes it is just hard parenting a child with chronic complex needs. So hard that I hide for a while.
I’ve been working up a spreadsheet to keep track of all the medical bills, the EOBs from the insurance company, the part I still have to pay, the reimbursement from our flexible spending account (pre-tax dollars). All good work, but really I need to be reading to my daughter and drinking in the time I have with her.
I’m overwhelmed. Each child of mine has different needs, but they all have needs! And I want to have a good relationship with every one of my kids! No matter how old they might be, or young. So I make a point to spend time with each one, listening to dreams, fears, experiences, new “learnings” (hate that word), and proclaiming their value and importance to me! I love doing it. Sometimes I just hang back because I’m stressed out. But once I jump into the moment with one of my kids, there is nothing else I’d rather be doing!
Speaking of which, I’m going to go read to En. Have a great one.